The kardashian/Jenner dialog that is playing out tonight on I am Cait hits a little close to home. It's good to watch but somewhat hard to watch. Good for Cait for finally be what she wants to be. Kudos to her for finally sitting down and talking to Kris.
Be proud of who you are, especially if you are going to change your family dynamic to do it, be proud and be confident. Most importantly don't hide and don't lie, and don't treat the ones that you once loved with hate and malice. Finally, love yourself.
Wednesday, July 15, 2015
Sunday, July 5, 2015
Austin here we come!
The last time I did the Kansas City to Austin trek I happened to be on the flight with a TKD parent that I now miss and think of every once in a while, Mr. Hankins. I remember fondly the three of us sitting at a southwest terminal bar, catching up and chatting. Amazing just a few short years later to head back and remeber that memory- if that time could be bottled up and saved as a souvenir I would do it in a heartbeat. Mr Hankins has since passed, and well........then there is all of my changes. There was nothing grandiose about that short layover, I remember nothing about the conversation, this morning I had a hard time remembering if Ryan was with us. What I I think it was, looking back to see the simplicity and innocence of life was there and we had no idea.
So much has changed, and as much as I love all my TKD parent family, I find it so difficult to relate to any of them, as does Ryan. My day to day a constant struggle. How am I going to swing getting Ryan to a middle of the day practice? Father/son workouts? A carefree life? I see these women, and these families and I hope to one day have a piece of that. A family unit and some semblance of normalcy. Don't get me wrong, it's part me. I hesitate to give out any information, I trust few and that trust is easily broken, I'm quiet, a bit more introverted and I watch myself and Ryan like a hawk.
As we head to Austin for nationals I can't wait to see how all the kids do. Cheering on the team and bringing back the gold but I cringe at the awkwardness that I predict. I can't wait to share in the happiness, see some old friends and start new beginnings.
So much has changed, and as much as I love all my TKD parent family, I find it so difficult to relate to any of them, as does Ryan. My day to day a constant struggle. How am I going to swing getting Ryan to a middle of the day practice? Father/son workouts? A carefree life? I see these women, and these families and I hope to one day have a piece of that. A family unit and some semblance of normalcy. Don't get me wrong, it's part me. I hesitate to give out any information, I trust few and that trust is easily broken, I'm quiet, a bit more introverted and I watch myself and Ryan like a hawk.
As we head to Austin for nationals I can't wait to see how all the kids do. Cheering on the team and bringing back the gold but I cringe at the awkwardness that I predict. I can't wait to share in the happiness, see some old friends and start new beginnings.
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